Author: Jessica Moreno

Date: April 27, 2025

Lately, I’ve been feeling completely overwhelmed. There’s so much going on in my life, and I just can’t seem to find a way to handle it all. My parents are constantly fighting, and it’s like their tension fills up the whole house, leaving me with this heaviness in my chest. School is harder than I thought it would be, way harder. I feel like I’m drowning in assignments, deadlines, and expectations, and I just don’t know how to keep up anymore. On top of that, my finances are a mess, and it’s hard to even imagine a future where I don’t feel like I’m just struggling to stay afloat.

The worst part is my partner. They used to be there for me, or at least that’s what I thought. I haven’t heard from them in ages. It’s like I’m just… forgotten. I don’t even know what to think about our relationship anymore. A while back, I made the choice to stop self-harming, and a lot of that had to do with their support. They said they didn’t want me hurting myself, and I listened because I wanted to be better, for them, for myself. But now that they’re not even writing to me anymore, I feel like I made that change for nothing. I don’t feel loved. I don’t feel seen.

I’m in my twenties, for God’s sake, and it feels like things are just getting worse. I keep asking myself why it isn’t getting better. Why do people leave? What’s wrong with me? I just want to feel like I matter. I just want to be enough. It’s like the only thing people see in me is what I can give them physically. That’s all I’m good for. And it hurts, because deep down, I know I’m worth more than that. I want to be chosen. I want to be respected.

But all I feel right now is this deep emptiness, like I’m just fading into the background. I don’t know how much longer I can keep pretending like everything’s okay when it feels like I’m falling apart. I just want to be loved for who I am, not for what I can do for others. Is that too much to ask for?