April 25, 2025
by Amelia June Cross

I’m 22 now, and honestly, sometimes it feels like life forgot about me.

I’ve only ever had one relationship, and even calling it that feels like I’m stretching the truth. It wasn’t deep or serious. It’s been years since then, and I’ve moved on from whatever that was. But still… it’s hard not to feel insecure when I’m the only one left single in my friend group.

Whenever we all hang out, it’s like I’m third-wheeling five couples at once. I try to laugh it off, act like I’m totally fine being on my own, but deep down, I feel this heavy loneliness creeping in. They ask me all the time—why aren’t you dating? Are you even trying? And I wish they understood how badly I do want someone. I’m not avoiding it because I don’t care. I’m scared.

I’m scared of getting rejected. Scared of being ghosted. Scared of opening up and then being told I’m not enough. Some days, I look in the mirror and don’t even feel pretty. I see every flaw, every reason why someone might pass me over.

It’s exhausting. I don’t know how to fix this feeling. I don’t want to rush into something just to say I have someone, but at the same time… it’s getting harder to keep believing that my turn will come.

Maybe someday someone will see me for who I really am. I just wish someday didn’t feel so far away.