Date: April 27, 2025
Author: Mark

My name is Mark, and for the past two years, I’ve still been in love with my ex.

We dated from 2017 up until 2023. To others, it may have seemed like a strong relationship — we were together for so long, and we fought to keep it together. But like any relationship, we had our problems. The biggest issue was when she’d ask for space — and not just any kind of space, but when she felt like a burden to me. I knew it was mostly due to her struggles, especially with her finances.

We were both Christian, and I think that faith played a huge role in why we lasted so long. It was what kept us going through the tough times.

But eventually, we both started to feel like we weren’t growing anymore. We were stuck. We were just going through the motions every day, trying to keep things alive, but it wasn’t working.

Then, in 2023, she asked for space again. This time, though, it felt different. There was something heavier in the air, something that told me this might be the beginning of the end. But I agreed. I didn’t know what else to do.

I’ve been thinking about everything ever since. And I know I made mistakes along the way. I cheated on her, and now I’m left with the guilt of not knowing how to make it right. I still love her, but the weight of what I did… it’s hard to shake off.