April 24, 2025
By Jordan Lee

Hi, strangers on the Internet. I never thought I’d be the type to share something so personal online, but here I am, doing it anyway. So, let me start from the beginning.

I’ve always been the kind of person who wanted to be loved, or at least liked, you know? Just to be shown some genuine interest from someone who really cared. And then, out of nowhere, someone amazing came into my life—this guy who was kind, respectful, and incredibly smart. He was everything I didn’t expect to find. I honestly didn’t think people like him existed. It felt like a gift, but also a curse, because I knew deep down I wasn’t in a place to be with him. Emotionally, I’m a mess. Financially, I’m struggling. I’m just not where I need to be to offer someone the kind of relationship they deserve.

But the weirdest thing happened today. I think he saw it coming. Maybe he knew what I was dealing with. He made it clear that we’re better off as friends. And that’s exactly what it was—a stranger-zone type of friendzone, if that makes sense. Not like a usual “let’s stay friends” thing, but a more distant, respectful space that made me realize that no matter how much I want to be more, it’s just not possible right now.

I’m glad, in a way. Glad because it’s what I needed to hear. But I’m also mad, frustrated even, because I was so close to something real and meaningful. Sometimes, you meet someone truly special, and all you can do is appreciate the connection without being able to make them yours. And that… that stings a little.

But I guess life has a way of showing you the beauty of people, even if you can’t have them the way you want. I just wish things were different, but I’ll hold on to the fact that I got to know him, even if only as a friend.