Date: April 27, 2025
Author: Jordan Ellis

My best friend has been talking to this guy for a while now, and honestly, you can tell they’re getting really close.
They spend hours playing games together, hours just talking — and it’s obvious he really likes her.

I’m genuinely so happy for her. She’s one of the sweetest people I’ve ever known, and she deserves to have someone who sees how amazing she is.
But… at the same time, I feel sad. And then I feel guilty for feeling that way.

She’s been talking to me less and less lately. Sometimes she goes hours without replying, even if we were mid-conversation. She might respond once, and then silence again for the rest of the day.

I miss her.
It’s not romantic, it’s nothing like that. It’s just me missing my best friend — missing feeling like I had someone.

I’m terrible at making friends, both in real life and online. I never really know what to say or how to keep a conversation going.
I hate feeling this lonely.
And I hate that even while I’m rooting for her happiness… I feel like I’m losing her at the same time.