I’ve always thought that I knew what love was—at least, I thought I did. I thought it was simple: you find someone who makes your heart race, someone who you can be yourself with, someone who loves you just as much as you love them. That was my girlfriend. She’s the sweetest, most thoughtful person I’ve ever met, and every time I look at her, I feel like the luckiest person in the world. She’s everything to me.

But lately, something has shifted. It started with little moments that I brushed off, thinking it was just a phase. I started catching feelings for my best friend. She gets me in a way no one else does. We’re so similar, and I can’t help but feel this pull every time I’m around her. We laugh about the same things, we have the same hobbies, and it feels like we’re two halves of a whole.

Now, I don’t know where I stand. I’m with my girlfriend, and I care about her deeply. But these feelings for my best friend keep growing, and they’re not going away. I find myself thinking about her in ways I shouldn’t. When I’m with my girlfriend, I can’t stop thinking about my best friend, and when I’m with my best friend, I feel guilty for thinking about my girlfriend.

I never wanted to hurt anyone. I never wanted to be in this situation, where I feel like I’m torn between two people who mean so much to me. I don’t want to betray my girlfriend. She’s been so loving and trusting, and the last thing I want to do is hurt her. But at the same time, I feel so drawn to my best friend, and I’m starting to wonder if maybe this is more than just a fleeting attraction.

I’ve thought about talking to my girlfriend about it, but I’m terrified of how she’ll react. I don’t want to make her feel like she’s not enough, because she is. She’s more than enough. But if these feelings for my best friend don’t go away, I don’t know what to do. Should I break up with my girlfriend? Should I be honest with her about what’s been going on in my heart? I don’t want to ruin the best thing I’ve ever had, but at the same time, I don’t want to keep hiding my feelings.

I’m so confused. I wish I had clear answers, but I don’t. I just don’t know what the right thing to do is. I’m scared of losing both of them. But if I keep going on like this, pretending that everything is fine, I don’t think it’s fair to either of them. I need to figure out what’s best for all of us, but right now, it feels like I’m standing at a crossroads with no clear path to follow.