Date: April 27, 2025
Author: Ava Mitchell

I don’t get why I feel this way, but I can’t help it. I get so jealous and envious when my friends don’t give me attention, especially one in particular. I hate how they can easily become friends with other people, and then the next day, they’re talking to them like they’ve known them for years. And it always feels like that other person doesn’t even like me.

Today, for example, I waited outside of school for my friends for what felt like forever — about 10 minutes. When they finally came out, they were with this person, and instead of hanging out with me like usual, they just decided to go off and talk to them.

I don’t even know why it bothers me so much, but I felt this wave of envy hit me. It’s not that they don’t give me attention or don’t care about me — they do. Specifically one of them. I love her. She’s one of my best friends. But I just can’t shake the thought of them being closer to other people than they are to me.

I know it’s unhealthy, but it’s how I feel. I’m just so lonely, and I don’t know how to stop myself from getting these feelings. I can’t help but wonder if I’m losing my place in their lives.