April 24, 2025
By: Sofia Carter

I found out I’m pregnant today.

I don’t know what I was expecting, but it definitely wasn’t this. I know my family will celebrate, and so will my husband’s. I know that’s what I’m supposed to feel—excited, happy, grateful—but instead, all I can do is sit on the couch, trying not to throw up, feeling completely alone.

We recently emigrated, and we don’t have the funding for a baby. Everything is uncertain, and I don’t know how we’re going to make it work, especially when my husband doesn’t seem to be the dad type. I’m not really the mom type either. It feels like we’re both just pretending to fit into these roles that we didn’t sign up for.

Right now, he’s mad at me about something else I said, and I’m just sitting here, feeling like I’m suffocating. I wanted to say this to someone—anyone—because I don’t know where to go from here.

I told my brother, but it doesn’t feel like enough. I don’t even know if I’m ready for this, but it’s happening. I don’t know what to do or what to feel. I’m scared. I feel so lost and overwhelmed.

I wish I could talk to my husband, but we’re not even on the same page. I just feel so alone in this.

— Sofia Carter