By: Sarah Miller

April 27, 2025

It’s been over a year since I dated him, and yet it feels like I’m still living in the same painful moment. We were together for five months, and in that time, I gave him everything—my love, my trust, my heart. But he didn’t give me the same. He cheated on me, flirted with other girls, and treated me like I wasn’t a priority in his life. I tried to tell myself it wasn’t his fault, that maybe he just didn’t understand how much I cared. But deep down, I knew. I knew he was manipulating me, making me feel like I wasn’t enough, when all I ever wanted was to feel loved in return.

I loved him unconditionally. Even after everything that happened, I still wanted him back. I wanted him to see me the way I saw him. But after we broke up, it didn’t take him long to move on. Just two weeks later, he had a new girlfriend. And it hurt. It hurt more than I thought it would.

Now, he seems to be treating her the way I always wanted him to treat me. He’s posting pictures with her, and everything looks perfect for them. And here I am, stuck in the past, unable to let go. I still think about him every day. I miss him. I miss the way he made me feel when we were good, even though those moments were far too few. And I hate myself for still feeling this way.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I know I should be over him by now. I know he wasn’t right for me. But a part of me is still holding on, hoping that somehow things will go back to how they were, or maybe that he’ll realize what he lost. But deep down, I know that’s not going to happen. He’s moved on, and I should too. But no matter how hard I try, it doesn’t seem to get any easier.

I just don’t know how to stop missing him. I don’t know how to let go of something that meant so much, even if it hurt me in the end. I want to move on. I know I need to. But the past keeps pulling me back, and it feels like I’m stuck in this cycle I can’t escape from.

– Sarah Miller