April 26, 2025 by Lucas M. West

I don’t know how to put it into words, but I feel completely robbed. I feel sad, empty, and I don’t know how to deal with it anymore. Knowing she’s with him—it’s been eating away at me for so long. People tell me it’s just a crush, or that it’s “just girl stuff,” but this feels different. It’s like heartbreak without actually being heartbroken. Every time I see them together, it’s like a knife in my chest.

It’s not something that fades. It hurts, deeply, for a long time. I think about her constantly. I feel sad, angry, disappointed. I try to hold on to hope, but even that feels like it’s slipping away. There are times when it feels like I’m going to burst if something doesn’t change. I can’t stop this feeling of being consumed by it all, and the worst part is she has no idea how much it’s destroying me.

I wish I could explain this feeling to someone, but I can’t. It’s hard to explain the happiness I feel when we share moments together, even if it’s just small interactions, because they’re followed by this deep emptiness.

It’s not a crush anymore. It’s something much deeper, something that I don’t think I can shake off. I don’t know why I feel like this. I don’t even know what I’m supposed to do with these feelings. I don’t know how to make it stop.