April 24, 2025

I love my family, with every inch of my heart. My spouse is my rock, and my child is everything I could have ever dreamed of. They are my world, my motivation, and I would do anything for them. But there’s something that has been weighing on me for a while now, a truth that I can’t seem to shake off.

I’ve been married for years, and I’m proud of the life we’ve built together. But the thing is, there’s this coworker. We’ve worked side by side for the past three years, and over time, I’ve found myself drawn to them in ways that I never imagined would happen. It’s not something I planned. It wasn’t intentional. It just… happened. I didn’t even realize how deep it had gotten until I found myself thinking about them when I should have been focused on other things.

I know this is ridiculous. I’m married, and I have a family. I’ve committed myself to them, and they mean the world to me. Yet, when I’m around this coworker, when she smiles or laughs, I feel something that I haven’t felt in a long time. I don’t think she feels the same way, and honestly, I don’t even know if I would want that. It’s all so confusing.

It’s like a fantasy that’s impossible to let go of, one I know I shouldn’t entertain. But still, every time we talk or share a moment, it’s like a little spark ignites inside me. I can’t help but wonder what it would be like if things were different, if there were no boundaries, no commitments. I know it’s unhealthy, and I know it’s not real, but for some reason, I can’t stop imagining it.

The hardest part is realizing how unfair this is. It’s unfair to my family, and it’s unfair to myself. I’ve spent hours reflecting, questioning why I’m even feeling this way when I already have everything I could possibly want. But sometimes, emotions are harder to control than logic, and that’s something I’m slowly coming to terms with.

I don’t want to act on this fantasy, because it’s just that—unrealistic. It’s a fleeting moment of wishful thinking that I know I need to let go of. But for some reason, every time I see her, that little spark reignites, and I find myself lost in a dream I know will never come true.

I love my family, and they are my priority. I need to remind myself of that every day because these fleeting thoughts are nothing compared to the love and life I’ve already built. But it’s a struggle, one that feels heavier with each passing day.

Author: Daniel Roberts