Date: April 27, 2025
Author: Damian Ross

After the girl who was married, there was another — and now, she’s my current girlfriend.
At first, I couldn’t help but feel a shift. Things were still not right with my ex, and for some reason, I felt happier with this girl. She gave me something my ex and I never had in seven years: intimacy. Sex. It wasn’t just physical; it felt like a connection I was starved for.

But then, I came to a realization. What I was doing was wrong. I was cheating on her. And I knew she didn’t deserve to be treated that way. So I made the decision to break up with her, even though I didn’t tell her the real reason why. I just… ended it.

And now, as I sit here writing this, I can’t help but wonder if I missed my chance at real happiness.
She’s so different from my ex. They’re the complete opposite in almost every way. My ex was calm, loving, someone I could talk to. But my girlfriend… she’s angry. She curses at me, yells at me, and even hits me sometimes — I’ve been punched, kicked in the face.

It’s like a constant emotional roller coaster, and even though it’s painful, I keep feeling like I can’t escape it. I don’t know what’s right anymore. I can’t tell if this is just who I am now, or if I’m just stuck in a cycle of bad choices.