April 24, 2025
By Jordan Blake

I think I’m in love with my friend.
It sounds kind of stupid, I know. Like something out of a cheesy romance novel, but it’s hard to ignore the way she makes me feel. She’s just so… perfect? Is that the word? It feels a little cringe, but I don’t know how else to describe her.

She’s like sunshine in human form—warm, caring, always making people smile. But it’s more than that. She’s funny, and smart, and has this easy confidence that’s honestly kind of contagious. And the way she moves? She’s a ballet dancer, which makes her graceful in a way that’s almost unreal. There’s a quiet elegance to everything she does.

And then there’s this vibe she gives off. Like, imagine the character from an old 2000s movie. Think “Sk8er Boi” by Avril Lavigne, but with a twist—she’s not the skater dude. She’s a skinny, dorky, nerdy girl, and somehow, she makes all that nerdiness look cool. She’s got this nonchalant confidence that is somehow… totally not cringe. It’s like she’s the living, breathing version of that girl everyone secretly wants to be, even if they won’t admit it.

And here I am, just trying to scrape by. It feels like I don’t even compare sometimes. She’s out here just being everything I wish I could be, and I’m lucky if I manage to get out of bed before noon.

It’s weird because I can talk to guys easily. I don’t even stress about it, even if I like them. But with her? I freeze. I don’t even know what to say, half the time. And yeah, I’ve had a girlfriend before—so I’ve done the whole relationship thing—but this is different. This feels… bigger. More confusing.

I don’t even know how to bring it up. I mean, how do you tell someone they’re everything you’ve ever wanted when you’ve spent your whole life just being their friend? I’m afraid to say anything, afraid it’ll ruin everything. But what if I’m already in too deep?

I don’t even know what I’m supposed to do with all these feelings. Maybe I’m just crazy. Maybe I’ll get over it. But for now, all I can do is keep pretending it’s all okay… even if my heart keeps telling me otherwise.