Date: April 28, 2025
Author: Emily J. Grayson
I’ve never really been one to obsess over my weight, but lately, it’s becoming a bit of an issue. I don’t know how it started, but somehow, I’ve developed this weird habit of eating when I’m bored. Like, I’ll be sitting in my room, scrolling through my phone, and the next thing I know, I’ve demolished a whole bag of chips or a candy bar.
The worst part? I’m not even sure if I’m actually hungry or if I just want something to do. I mean, I’m not starving. I’ve never been underweight or anything; in fact, I’m pretty average when it comes to my weight for my age and height. But it’s like my brain doesn’t register the difference between hunger and boredom anymore. And that scares me.
I know it sounds kind of ridiculous, but I’m honestly worried that if this continues, I’m going to gain a ton of weight. It’s not like I’m sitting down for a full meal. No, I’m more of a snacker. Little bites here and there, but it all adds up over time. And I can feel it. My jeans are starting to fit a little tighter, and I can’t help but feel anxious every time I eat something that’s not “healthy.”
I’ve tried stopping myself, telling myself that I don’t actually need the food, but it’s hard to break the habit. And when I try to ask myself, “Am I really hungry, or am I just bored?” the answer is always so confusing. Sometimes, I think I’m just trying to fill a void, something to occupy my mind while I’m stuck in this loop of boredom.
I keep wondering if anyone else deals with this. The constant back-and-forth of wanting to be healthier but also giving into the easy comfort of food. I don’t want to develop any unhealthy eating patterns, but sometimes it’s hard not to. I think, maybe I just need to focus on finding something else to do when I feel like snacking, like reading or doing something creative.
But for now, it’s a struggle. I don’t want to let this thing take over, but it feels like it’s slowly creeping into my life, and I don’t know how to make it stop.
