I’ve been sitting with this feeling for a while now, and I’m starting to think that maybe it’s time to end things. I don’t want to be the type of person who holds on to something just for the sake of it, but I can’t shake this gut feeling. The truth is, I like him too much. It sounds strange, right? Like, how can you like someone too much? But I do. I feel like I’m holding him back in some way—like I’m not good enough for him, and that he might be wasting his time and energy on me. I want him to be happy, and sometimes I feel like I’m not enough to give him that.

The thing that really messes with my mind is his friendship with her. I know it’s been there long before we started dating, and I don’t want to be that person who tells him who he can and can’t be friends with. But every time he mentions her, I can’t help but feel a little… unsettled. I try not to let it show, but deep down, it stirs something in me. He talks about her like it’s nothing, like there’s no need for any explanation. They hung out at her house the other day, and he mentioned it casually, like it was no big deal. And maybe it isn’t. Maybe I’m just overthinking it.

I don’t want to project my insecurities onto him, though. I don’t want to tell him he can’t be friends with her just because I’m jealous. That’s not fair to him. But I guess it all comes down to whether I can trust my feelings and my gut in this situation. I don’t want to be the one holding him back from living his life, and I don’t want to make him feel like he has to choose between me and his friends. But at the same time, I can’t help but feel that this might not be the healthiest relationship for me right now.

It’s so complicated. I keep thinking about how it’s all going to play out, and I wonder if this is just me being irrational or if there’s something deeper here. Maybe I’m afraid of getting hurt, or maybe I just don’t feel secure enough in myself to believe that I deserve this kind of love. Whatever it is, it’s hard to ignore the little voice that keeps saying maybe it’s time to walk away. I just don’t know if I’m strong enough to do it.