April 25, 2025
by Amelia Rose Carter

I don’t know what to think anymore. I just posted something, but I ran out of characters and couldn’t finish it the way I wanted to. She told me she wished I wasn’t her daughter, and then she cried. And all I could do was comfort her, even after she’d been screaming at me. I don’t understand why I had to be the one to comfort her when she was the one hurting me.

It makes me wonder… am I a horrible person? I don’t think I am, but I’m confused. I was just a child. I’m still just a child, barely fifteen. This all started when I was twelve and went on until I was fourteen. It’s hard to even think about it, let alone talk about it. I feel like I don’t know who I am in all of this.

I’m distant from my dad now. I guess it’s part of being a girl, but it hurts. I can’t even remember the last time we really connected, until after my second attempt. The first time he ever told me he loved me was then. But it didn’t feel like it meant anything, not really. We’re not close like that.

I just feel lost in all of this. I don’t know what to do anymore.